Hi, people. :D

Booom'zx , earthlings. Hi, :D , i'm updating my blog le.
Haaaaaaaaah, wheeee , choir's ending real soon, \m/..

Something for my beloved ones, :D .

Kimberly ; Sweetheart.
Booom, chioh. Thanks for being there when i need you,
you're a person that i can rely on, making me believe in friendships.
As you know my past, thanks for the understanding, seriously.
I wana you to know that, i'm really lucky to have you as a bestfriend.
I never regret coming into Greendale, as i've met manymany friends.
They're the one whom are always for me. Alright? (: , ily. :D .
Sorry for the attitude and stuffs, i know it's unbearable. Right? ._.
I'm really veryveryvery sorry, sweetie. Bestfriends to the very end. :D ,
Things that are easy to get, are often taken for granted, that's what you taught me. :D
Lovedieyah, :D. <3.>

Elaine ; Steady.
Hie, steady. Thanks for sharing secrets with me alright?
Really appreciate it, (: . Again, sorry for the attitude and stuffs.
Really sorry alright? (: , haaah. Hope we can be steady always and forever.
I wanna you to know that, despite how many times you fall, you must climb up.
Like, how you taught me to. It's really useful. Face challenges well, and never give up.
That's your spirit. Okay? (: , haaah. If anything that happened made you undecidable,
call me alright, will always be there for you de, :D . Lovedie, shixuan. :D

Luiyun ; Painkiller.
Hey, pretty. Haaah, thanks for being the one whom i can talk to, when i needa talk.
You play a important role in my life, it's irreplaceable. It also fall for the clique.
Okay? (: , sorry for the attitude too, thanks for the forgivings and understandings.
Heeeeehs, ily likea mad. :D , teeeheeehs. Hope we can be gans always. :D

Yuki ; Szb.
Heyyou, :D . Thanks for being the one whom i can text, everyday.
I really appreciate that. Although, the texts doesnt last, but still, thanks.
If i really had the chance, i would like to rewind to primaryschool.
Cause, it's the time where i met you, knew you, and became bestie.
Heeehs, although it has bad memories, but still i'm willing to.
Lovedie you man. :D .

Jiaxuan ; Sotongqueen.
Heyyoh, imma sorry for what i said just now. I dint do it purposely.
But, hope you'll forgive me yeah. Dont take it to heart.
I admit, i was harsh enough. Sorry, real sorry. Very sorry.
We met when we were in primaryschool.
Through these couple of years, we quarreled.
But, each time we quarreled, we end up patching up,
clearing the thoughts, and became friends again.
And, after the quarrel, we'll turn closer and closer. Yeah?
I know, you feel hurt, I feel hurt too. But I tell myself,
if i dont tell you this, you'll keep doing it. And make me feel sad.
You get what i mean? I dint do it purposely. Really, I swear.
Let's be back sotongqueen, alright?

Boy, imy.

Choir camp tmr lehh, excited man. (: , Haaaah.
It's a 2D1N camp. (L) , gonna have lots of things to chitchat.
^^, thanks sweetheart for helping me to update my blog, lovelove.
I just realise that, i'm gonna have tuition real soon, Z.
It's totally god damn boring, nothing to do. ._. , well, have to accept that. ):
Seriously, i find nothing for me to update my blog, LOL. :D

Life's been boring enough for me, during the holidays.
Somehow, i wished ...

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hi everyone, here to help my sweetheart update her blog. (: She still owes me my letter, y'know. LOL. Sweetheart, I wanna thank you for always being there for me. (: Throughout the ups and downs we have, we're still as close as ever, i think. I hope this friendship will be everlasting okay? woaini. ^^ Let's go gaigai soon okay? Every third of the month is loved. (: You uh, must update your blog more often okay? Otherwise all your readers will runaway. Tag more okay?Her tagboard is dead. hahah. Okay, enough of my craps, have a good day everyone. (:

Boooh, back to posting. Been rotting at home, doing nothing.
Life without school, seems reallyreally bored. Kinda miss school.
But, going for choir for the holidays, are like so damn freaking tiring.
Somemore, need do updown, cause late. And, said goodbye to my longlong nails.
Miss them like hell, difficulties in typing texts.
Gtg, bye.

Life seems so bored after holidays. Either choir practices, if not rot.
Haish, really rotting. Haaah, at home zuo bo. Tio kaopei somemore.
Say i xiasuey her, make her no face. Enough horh, so long liao, dont keep saying leh.
Make me more pissed off niah, haish.

Some dedication to make, (: .

Clique :
Hey, :D . Thanks for giving me precious memorable memories. (: , I really enjoyed it.
Wahhaa, thanks for the comforting, huggings, outings. I'll miss it. :D , i swear, we'll be bestfriends
forever, alrights? (: , ily ; steady, sweetheart, siaozhaborh & painkiller. :D

Wheee, i'm back posting. School's ending soon.
Results, i'm speechless. It's so boohhoo. ):
But, i tried me best, believe it or not. Seriously.
So, can you like stop comparing? It's irritating. Urgh.
Through is 10 plus months, i enjoyed being a 1e1.
Really, i do. They're a cute class. (: , haaaah.
And i wonder if we'll be in the same class, i doubt so.
But, i wish you all the best in everything you do, alright?
^^ , gtg. Bye, (:

What's true love? Idk, i wondered if that feeling counts.
Cause on 0110101359, I had that extraordinary feeling,
a feeling that i cant describe, a feeling that lasted till now.
But even though it's just for 5 hours, serious, i felt blessed.
Yeah, I really wanna thank you for giving me the 5 hours.
Maybe i wasnt that good to be the girlfriend of yours,
being your mei was much more better, right? (: ,
but i aint sure if that's a good chioce,
i cant forget you, throughout the 5 hours, you were in my mind.
I told myself, not to cry instead smile , cause if i cried,
then i know i wont be able to stand up again.
Loving you, was th best thing i made in life,
to be honest, i never had this kind of eccentric feeling before.
Thanks for what you've gave me, it was a wonderful memory.
I'll remember everything, :D . Heeeh, thankyou.
Now, you became my kor, and i'm your mei.
Isnt that great? I hope so.



I need time, to forget.
I need time, to learn.
I need time, to love.
I need time, to smile.
I need time, to laugh.

But, by hook or by crook, i'll get you out of my mind, asap.

this post is for 2 people; one for her , and the other for another her, (:


for her;
i know you're not happy with me, and it's very obvious,
kay, i'm guilty now, you're farfarfar better than me,
while i'm just a girl that wanna attention, i'm wrong,
you're always correct, right? i'm stupid, you're clever,
i'm despicable, you're innocent, can? :D yeah,
you might think that this is impossible for me to say
out my true colours, i'm like that, hahahhahah, (:
you win now, are you happy? i'm speechless,(:
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehs, gratsgats ^^,
i'm sorry and i know you wont give it a damn,



to her;
i know that you're mad with me now, and i'm sorry.
you've changed, another you, another personality,
a person that i never met before, yeah, that's you.
i know you dint realise that you change, but i did,
even if it's just a slight one, i did thought of what happened recently,
with me around, there's no happiness, but infact the sadness float out
Yeah, that's true, right? hahahh, you might be laughing right now,






to be continued;

dont come near me

I'm a bad friend , a friendsnatcher, a bitch , a copycat ,
dont come near me , i know you hate me now ,
and i'm reallyreally sorry , i know it's hard to ask for your smile again ,
but this is what i want , and also what i want is that she'll be happy with both of us ,
she isnt really happy with me when i'm with her , but she's happy when you're with her .
you can say that i'm jealous or what , but i just want her to be happy ,
is that wrong , i know she plays an important part in your life , right ?
same as me, i know i'm selfish , and now , i can share her with you ,
cos idw this thing to happen , yeah , i did say that i wan the clique to be like that day at escape ,
and now , i'm the one that cause this thing to happen , it's all my fault and i'm a bad friend,
dont come near me anymore , i'm bad ,

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BOOOOH ! sorry for not posting for so long lerh , and thanks for keeping my tagboard alive ^^
we both are drifting further and further , we aint that close anymore , and you don seems to know ,
but i know it clearly , through yesterday , all the attention was always you , not me ,
i don wan attention , but i want you to know that i cannot afford to lose you ,
we dint manage to talk more yesterday , and i know that she want you , idk what to do .
She want you , I want you , everyone wants you , but idk who will you chose now ,
it's like everything had change , i know that things change , but noone knows what a person's thinking .
Sometimes, i can know yours , when you're in badmood , when you need a person to share your secret ,
i'm always there , but idk whether you know it anot , and if you see this post , maybe i've already change for you ,
i'll let noone to snatch you , you're my bestbestbest and always there for me , life without you is like a book without
it's chapter , i'm sorry for being selfish , but idk what to do , i learnt my lesson in primary school , i cant lose my friends now , they're the best , everyone have their bad and good points, learn to accept the bad points and
continue the good points is what i've learn throughtout this lesson , i hope she know who she is , i won't reveal ,
but hope that she know , and now , i'll end my post here , byeee :D

Happy one month to Luiyun crappyhoney & glenn kor (: ! Last super long (:

BOOOHHHOOOOH (:
it has been 123456789 days since i last posted ,
xD , maybe too exaggerating lerhs , xD
yesterday went to e!hub with class (:
went to jiaxuan's house to meet her ,
and luiyun came after me .
thn went to fetch our dearest princess ; kimberly (:
she was so so so princess that she wore pink colour xD
thn reached e!hub , went macdonalds to meet class ,
smiled to Mdm lidia when saw her , this is polite(: ,
^^ , xD ! Other people went to have their breakfast ,
but my clique doesnt want to have any breakfast ,
cause dowan owe teachers' favour ,
thn escaped to watson with luiyun
and kimberly came to catch up with us , (:
saw the class moving out from macdonalds ,
thn followed , but slacked awhile cos 'chers MIA xD
after that , went to arcade & it was super funn (:
played basketball , gogoball , percussion & many many more
but when playing halfway , 'chers came and i escaped ,
don feel like seeing them anyway ,
after that , took neo-prints with dearest clique ,
and it was 12.30 , luiyun showed the neoprints to 'chers
was like super paisehh , xD
thn ate lunch at macdonalds & escaped to ESCAPE(:
played pirate ship , and scream like mad women(:
thn boat-ed in the water , & bullied many people , *evillaughters*
thn miniroller coaster until back painpain ):
after that wet & wild , i got orhceh cos of this , knn ,
xD , the haunted house was not really that scary but screamed ,
'cos i saw one ghost chasing after me *rawr * argh ~
thn second round , keep looking backwards to prevent the
bloody ghost come and do anything funny , xD
thn bumper car-ed & luiyun dint feel well , jiaxuan pei her(:
thn i don wan play , cos i scaredscared , (:

continue tmr (:

stop acting that you're that good ,
you just treat me as a dog ,
and from now on , i'll not follow you .
but , i will let you see what's life without me ,
& maybe you will reflect ?
or you'll not , all depends on you .
idk , i dont wan to know , & dont wish to know .

get lost of my life & i'll thank you (:

Ehh auntie , so what you my mother siah ,
recently , you forced me to cry so much everyday .
Do you know who suffer ? me , and you dint care .
thn now , freedom , you care so much for what siah ,
fuckoff my life , you think that i have to give in to you ,
cos you are my mother ? well , thn you are totally wrong .
yes , indeed i owe you a favour for giving birth to me ,
but get this clear , i dint force to you to give birth to me .
so , by right , you shouldn't have cared that much about me .
enough is enough lah , you expect me to rot at home ,
doing nothing ? cant even touch the computer ?
wait longlonglong lah , who will ? -'- !
i bloody hell hate you to the core !

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH !


Hey everyone , i'm finally back to posting xD
Today morning damn pissed off ,
tot that can go watch movie fastfast ,
who knows that mdm lidia wanna talk .
Somemore her talk not 5 - 10 mins ehh ,
is 45 - 1 hr siah , was like damn pissed off .
thn was like keep pointing middle finger to her ,
cos got pencil case block ;x


thn worst part came :
wanted to hire a taxi to go home ,
but thn the whole road almost no car ,
taxi , cfm more worst derh ,
hardly even see one -.- !
thn walk infontinfront thn got peepos snatch cab -.- !
lucky got one , but the uncle's attitude ,
sibei jialat ! tell us not to talk and ask for the direction ,
cb siah , -.- !

thn chiong everything lerhs , get down ,
hired cab again , and went to bryan's house ,
fetched him and went to e!hub ;D

met luiyun & kelvan , went to eat BBQ chicken(:
it was yummy-licious ! :D
wooots(: , thn went to the movie ; SHREK !
was okayokay lahh , 3D de worhhs ,
so shiok neh (: , thn after the movie ,
went toilet straight -.- !
thn arcade-d ! <3 ! heehs (; till abt like 3.05 like that , cab-bed to jiaxuan's house for D & T -.- , requested bryan to do , but still need give $5 -.- ! but at least no need do , LOL !
ending post lerhhs , (:

Yohh , blogging now at jiaxuan's - boyfriend house! (:





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went to jiaxuan's house for revision , damn guai de worhhs !
after that went to Rivervale mall to buy goodies (:<
& revised for science, okayokay lahh , not that difficult ,



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Boohhoohh ! Back to posting alrd ! :D
but cant rlly post that often lerhhs ,
needa study for that MYE , -.- !
I dowan fail , I scared I fail !
So , i must jiayouh lerhhs ~


100510;wasnt a very good day ,
due to some reasons , but dowan say .

Will post ltr , paisehh -.-

Alamakkkk ! why my room so many mosquitos ?
I have so many love bites ! ARGHH !!!

sorry ,
a short post , cos no time lerhs :x

hey gal , a person's patience has its limit
I dint say doesnt mean I don care ,
enuff is enuff , bitch !
I'm totally hating you now ,
who the heck care think you are ?
uhh ? keep at there act act ,
want people to sympatise you ?
Wait longlonglong also don have !
Such a bitch ! don test people's patience ,
cos you are just way too far ! if you're once my friend ,
you shud be happy now ! Cheebye !

我好想和你说声我爱你 ， 但是我知道你不会接受我 。
因为我很丑 ， 你不可能对我发生感情 ， 对吗？

世上有许多许多的人 ， 我能和你相遇 ， 是命中注定 ，
因此 ， 我很开心 。 遇见你之后 ， 我不断的想你 。
我不会逼你爱上我 ， 只奢求能够和你做朋友 。
就那么的简单 。 希望能和你有近一步的了解 （：

Every time i laugh ,
I hope he's watching .
It's not becos I want him
to see me happy ,
but because maybe ,
just maybe , he'll fall
for my smile as hard as i fell for his(:


Haish , haven complete D&T yet ~
nothing to post lerhs , byee(:

yoh all ! hahah (: , kinda bored recently .
Cried ytd , feeling down now ? But don wanna show it .
Friendship at risk ? Idk , cos now damn confusing . -.- ,
haish , when will friendship problems stop popping ?
lol , hope will stop soon then ?


today , chinese lesson first . 'cher played music(;
hahha , woots . Thn D&T after that ,
that one quite fun lahh , but abit dont understand.
Mr Cheong was like damn scary lorhs ,
he ask me click , i click wrong line , he angry ..
I tot i'll tio scolding soon , but nvr .
Hahah , after that recess . Dint eat , cos pokai lerhs ):
After that is literature . Wanted to sleep in class , but scared
tio caught -.- , thn science , did some experiment (;


Thn kelvan rich sehh , treat pizza(: , woots , thks anw (:
hahha , thn taxi-ed back to skool . Was late by 1 min -.- ,
changed into gown & totally looked awful -.- .
sing , sang , sung (: , thn go back to 1A1's classroom .
Changed back to uniform & walk-ed to punggol plaza(:
Kimberly , Elaine & Luiyun bought bubbletea (;
and the most shocking thing is : we saw miss beh & mdm lidia together in miss beh's car -.-


I was like asking them : the yellow car issit miss beh's car ahh ?
them : not possible lehh ,
me : but really looks like siah
kimberly : ehh , today miss beh wear what colour de clothes arh ?
me : pink , * went nearer to have a good look *
me : it's her lahh ,
them : o.0 , thn who's the one beside her ahh ?
me : i not sure lehh ,
them : issit boy or gal ?
me : i think gal lahh * went closer *
me : it's mdm lidia !
* all run ! *
hahah , the story is about like that(; ,
hahha(:



letting you happy is enuff (:

Wahh , today damn suay siah ,
kanna tio offence file ! ARHHHH !


walau , damn angry siahh ,
fckish day man !
Alamak , stop your actions , you bitch !
I hate you 2 ttc !
always !

on top de picture nice ?
Is me & my sweetheart take de worhs ! :D
Heehs , she's such a duachiohbuhh , right ?


heehs ,
today , went to jiaxuan's house to do art ,
& lots of love to luiyun for helping me to print ,
luvsluvs ! hahah , painkiller always , yeah ?

currently on the phone with kimberly ,
& she's luffing like hell ?
Lol , dont kill me when you see this , xD

At the same time , msning dearest luiyun ,
she's editing my pictures , woots !
Hahah , now we're having a more closer up ,
cos nowadays , i think i've left her out ...
paiseh uhh , really damn paiseh horhs ,

kay ,shall end here lerhs (:
I wanna find a time & go out with my friends ! (:

Someone asked me if i know you ,
i smiled & replied : I used to ...


Sorry , you've missed the chance ,
and dont expect me to return it to you ,

Ilovekimberly ! hahah (:
She's my forever ! heehs ,
(:

Oh , i shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are .
But i can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart .
I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before ,
cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore...


I luv this picture on top , it totally rocks(:
Kimberly , sweetheart , luvluv(:
Idk what kind of feeling it was , just somehow being attracted.
But , Idk this kind of feeling will last for how long .
Cos , I know that he won't be serious . Cos he's so shuai .
Of course , the attraction outside will be better than me.
Lots of chiohbuhhs outside , better than me , for him to chose .
Just somehow being attracted ? But maybe the feeling won't last long .
Cause the distance are apart , & we dint even say a single word to each other.
Maybe I'll just watch him from a far distance . & try to get rid of that feeling.
But , it takes time . & i'll jiayous . Seriously , I will try .
I'll try harder than ever , as no ones know this . Except for a few .
I guess this would be my deepest , darkest secret ever .

Kimberly , iloveyou , my sweetheart(:
Elaine , iloveyou, my chiohbuhh darling(:
JiaXuan, iloveyou , my darling (:
Yuki , iloveyou , my starshine(:
Luiyun , iloveyou , my secretssharer(:

You are putting me in a difficult spot .
I feel like hating you , but i cant .
You're my mum , a mum that gave birth to me ,
I cant hate you , but you are really going too far .
If it's you that make me hate you , i'm sorry .
I cant do anything , but just hate you .

The things that I want to do , you dun allow ,
what you expect me to do ? Idk what to do .
If you think that who I am now is what you do ,
thn you might as well kill me . I cannot take it anymore.
Since you think that i owe you my life , kill me instead .
I may feel alot more better & thank you .
Maybe John can take over me , & you like him so much .
I had enuff , stop screaming at me , ordering me around
when you're in bad mood . You slapped me 2 slaps ,
Who are you to slap my face? Even if you're my mum ,
I'm not your PUNCHING BAG!

Can I please have my freedom back?
I'm giving you face to ask you if i can go out ,
if i'm not giving you face , I'll dash out of the house ,
w/o asking your permission . If i really cannot tahan you ,
i'll do it .



Kimberly : I'm sorry that my tears flowed down .
I really sorry . But i really cannot take it .
Luv kays ?

Hey , i'm back again posting(:



Felt like crying , dint know why.
Just a feeling , somehow about love?
Probably? I dun want to know why.
Cos , i scared that i'll cry profusely.
Which I dun really want to.
My tears dried up becos of you.


I cant fall in love with you anymore.
I just realise that actually ,
you're happier with her than me.
Should I give you my blessings?
Idk , i dun wish to know .
But I've been avoiding this problem .
I think it's time to settle it.
Perhaps , letting you go ,
both of us can be friends ,
talking like last time?
I hope so .
Time should be the best medication...

Hey , i'm back posting(:



A million words would not bring you back ,
I know because i tried , neither would a million tears ,
I know because I cried.


The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love,
love someone else.



If you love me, let me know.
If not , please gently let me go


I think they are so meaningful...
Kay , stop here. maybe post ltr

Getting near you , forcing a smile ,
really makes me hurt. But ,
now , trying to get rid of that feeling .
Maybe it's all just a memories .
Not really that kind of feelings.
I've been wanting to avoid you ,
but I dun want you to feel guilty .
So , I dint avoid you .

Hey , I'm back posting(:

Later maybe Kimberly , elaine , jiaxuan , ryan , bryan & luiyun coming to revise for common test(:
Yesterday , was like my pocket got a big hole. Took 3 cab to destination. All I sponsor. xD
First , kimberly & elaine came to my house . Thn took cab & let kimberly down thn elaine's
house. After elaine finish her bathe , cabbed to compass. Thn Elaine ate her lunch.
TomYam... My face was like so so red. Like blushing like that. Thn went arcade to find
Jia Xuan & LuiYun. Took neo-prints. All chio buhhs, except me... hahaha
Thn Elaine & JiaXuan took one more by themselves. Cabbed to JiaXuan house.
Thn revise lerhs. But revise for a short while , thn the boys called and came JiaXuan's house.

Shall end post. Needa bathe lerhhs...


you seem happier with her than me,
maybe I should really let go,
& find a new relationship...
But there's somehow left a few memories ,
etching in my mind . Hard to forget...

I regretted not capturing the moments with you.
but, it's too late. Maybe we're fated to be just friends?
Nothing that exceed that? perhaps? idk?
But, what I know is that , it wun happen anymore.
Even if you don feel anything, I felt it.
The feeling which really kills.

Heyy, I back posting(: Woots(:

Later going to grandma house, still need climb up the stairs to go to the room. So tired xD
But on top got air-con de worhs. Still can massage. What type of leisure is that? ahahah(:
Maybe, I really can forget the things happen around me lerhs.
Trying to forget gradually. Forgetting a person, isnt that simple.
It's like you're really having lots and lots of good time with him, but suddenly,
he's not at your side, wouldn't it be very weird? So, i must keep myself very very very ,
absolutely busy, & then , i will not be thinking of those kind of things that will affect me.
That was what I have already tot of. Maybe , it may took a few months, but,
after the few months, I may forget it. So, I dun mind if I took months to hurt myself.
Cos, it's really really very useful. Dun have much to write in my blog lerhhs.
Let me put on my thinking caps~ Yeah! uh-huh(: Tot of something(:


I really wish that I can just stab myself.
The feeling accumulate till I really cannot take it.
It's like the whole 12 year & 1/4 month,
there's like a bottle, which sealed all my feelings inside.
& now, I think i'll be empty-ing the bottle.
Refresh my memory, deleting my past.
But, i know, this wont happen.
Just my thinking. If only this can happen, wont that be great?
Human wont be living so pathetic when they remind of their bad past?

Tears started flowing down. But , I swear to myself that i'll be strong.
Not crying over now, but thinking of how should i correct it(:
that's the spirit:D feel so weird that meimei went to malaysia lerhs
never sms her. Like feel so uneasy. Hahah, meimei, faster come back.
Jiejie miss die you lerhs(: kay? Sms me when you get home. kay?(:


I really really wish that time can rewind & i'll nvr do that silly mistake anymore.
But, it wont happen anymore, not even thinking of it, cos all are no longer true.
the feelings, the promises, the moment, the outings, the staybacks, are all not true anymore.
Maybe time is the better cure for all sickness. & it's what i need now,
maybe i'll take a longer time forgetting those things, currently dont have the feeling.
Update next time(: Buhbyee(:



you're no longer the one i know,
you've changed, changed to a person whom I dunno.
Maybe we're not fated to be together.
Treasure the moments with her. Kay?
Stay happy forvever(:
I'll give you my blessings(:

~

Alot of things happen recently.
But, what I can say is that, I really being affected.
I'm not blaming them, but what i can say is that , I am willing to change.
After friendship problems, comes after relationship. He wanted a break-up.
Idk why, it's like my heart is really very very heavy. it's suffocating with many problems.
I'm tired of thinking, smiling, crying. I'm not wanting your sympathy.
Just that this year really isnt my luck, have been facing mountains of problems since the starting of January.
den febuary like that. I really dunno what I will be doing this year. I dun really listen what's the teacher is talking.
My heart seems to be stacked with many many rocks. It became so heavy.
You all just dunno the feeling of it. Cos, you're the lucky one.
I really really wants to be a normal person. Not the one you know anymore.
Maybe I should focus on my studies. & cherish the time spend with my meimei(:
My meimei is Hiang hee(: Hahah. Love die her lerhs. Now, i think i should listen to what yiting says,
she told me to think about the positive stuff & not thinking so pessimist.
Things might be getting better each day, each second, or perhaps, each month.
If I believe that we will be friends again, there might be a chance <--- that was what she told me.
And then, i think i should believe it. Even if the chances are slim. Now, after saying all my feelings,
I feel so well, blogging can be also a type of letting off your anger. I shld have notice it.
But better late than never. (: I must cheer up, not be so sad anymore. Now, talk about those happy moments.

Yeah(: today went out with sistas.
But first, went to RVPS of course(:
Hug-ged lots of people as really miss them(:
Then went to find mrs ng & othr teachers.
Thanks James for pulling out my hairband.
I'll find you for revenge next time.
& you can pass it to me.
But, u call-ed theodoric to throw.
then was like in the field.
Not blaming you. & I'm not an airport.
cos i'm really not.
Then, after saying goodbye to teachers,
went to slack at compass(:
Bought " slurpee " at 7-11.
& went to the corridor of the LRT station, i think.
Chatted for hours. That was the time when I feel that i can really pour out my feelings.
But, it dint really help. Thanks for comforting me, yiting & tine. BFFL(: Sistas too(:
Never regretted knowing you as friend, alright?(:

Thn came home. Bath-ed & sms-ed meimei(:
Hahah, told me that she's going malaysia tmr.
& not to sms her. Sobs~
No-one to sms to lerhs. xD
nehh mind. can sms others.
hahah, meimei, must come back safe and sound.(:
Love her forever(: heeeehhs(:
Tmr maybe seeing cousinxD
Hahah, so "high" lerhs.
But at skool not "high" , cos really cannot go "high".
Too stress lerhs. andand i really hope that me , meimei will have everlasting friendship(:
Hope so(: Hahah,
Gtg, cya. Update till hands tired lerhs.
Buhbyee(:


Ps: ily , my beloved meimei, Hiang Hee(: :D
From , shi xuan , jiejie:D (:

Helloh earthlings, now cant use computer on weekends unless have to find infomation on hmwk.
If not, cant touch the computer, cant see the laptop, life is like shit. No offence though.
But at least knew a few friends that can be sure to be my BFFL(:


Kimberly - Darling:D
Yuki - Jie(:
Elaine - Jie (:
Luiyun - twinnie(:
Jia xuan - mei(:

Ytd wanted to go to primary school to see teachers.
But, the stupid security guard say must call the teachers to bring us in.
What kind of logic is this uhh? cant we go in?
thn saw mdm Wan, she said that teachers would be having a workshop at 11.30.
Then fine lorhs, went to rivervale mall to eat lunch. Ate KFC(:
thn yiting , carolyn & me ate the shrooms meal.
Fries is like ohk ohk. But macdonald's de nicer. :X
thn went daiso to buy the choir file, but dun have.
So, went compass with Elaine, Yuki, Kimberly , Randy & Bryan.
Went to popular, the file was like damn expensive siah.
One file , 40 pockets = $ 5 ++
Daylight robbery seh. LOL.





Thn later going to AMK Hub/ Tampines mall to buy clothes(:
Woots!(: Hope can buy the clothes i want(:
cardigans, short pants , singlets & many many more(:



Gtg, Bye earthlings(: