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Alot of things happen recently.
But, what I can say is that, I really being affected.
I'm not blaming them, but what i can say is that , I am willing to change.
After friendship problems, comes after relationship. He wanted a break-up.
Idk why, it's like my heart is really very very heavy. it's suffocating with many problems.
I'm tired of thinking, smiling, crying. I'm not wanting your sympathy.
Just that this year really isnt my luck, have been facing mountains of problems since the starting of January.
den febuary like that. I really dunno what I will be doing this year. I dun really listen what's the teacher is talking.
My heart seems to be stacked with many many rocks. It became so heavy.
You all just dunno the feeling of it. Cos, you're the lucky one.
I really really wants to be a normal person. Not the one you know anymore.
Maybe I should focus on my studies. & cherish the time spend with my meimei(:
My meimei is Hiang hee(: Hahah. Love die her lerhs. Now, i think i should listen to what yiting says,
she told me to think about the positive stuff & not thinking so pessimist.
Things might be getting better each day, each second, or perhaps, each month.
If I believe that we will be friends again, there might be a chance <--- that was what she told me.
And then, i think i should believe it. Even if the chances are slim. Now, after saying all my feelings,
I feel so well, blogging can be also a type of letting off your anger. I shld have notice it.
But better late than never. (: I must cheer up, not be so sad anymore. Now, talk about those happy moments.

Yeah(: today went out with sistas.
But first, went to RVPS of course(:
Hug-ged lots of people as really miss them(:
Then went to find mrs ng & othr teachers.
Thanks James for pulling out my hairband.
I'll find you for revenge next time.
& you can pass it to me.
But, u call-ed theodoric to throw.
then was like in the field.
Not blaming you. & I'm not an airport.
cos i'm really not.
Then, after saying goodbye to teachers,
went to slack at compass(:
Bought " slurpee " at 7-11.
& went to the corridor of the LRT station, i think.
Chatted for hours. That was the time when I feel that i can really pour out my feelings.
But, it dint really help. Thanks for comforting me, yiting & tine. BFFL(: Sistas too(:
Never regretted knowing you as friend, alright?(:

Thn came home. Bath-ed & sms-ed meimei(:
Hahah, told me that she's going malaysia tmr.
& not to sms her. Sobs~
No-one to sms to lerhs. xD
nehh mind. can sms others.
hahah, meimei, must come back safe and sound.(:
Love her forever(: heeeehhs(:
Tmr maybe seeing cousinxD
Hahah, so "high" lerhs.
But at skool not "high" , cos really cannot go "high".
Too stress lerhs. andand i really hope that me , meimei will have everlasting friendship(:
Hope so(: Hahah,
Gtg, cya. Update till hands tired lerhs.
Buhbyee(:


Ps: ily , my beloved meimei, Hiang Hee(: :D
From , shi xuan , jiejie:D (: