Yesterday, dunno like what happen.
Yuki want her dad to fetch me to kelvan house to give him the homework.
But for dunno what reason, after her father drove away, I felt like turning back.
I want to walk with yiting they all & i also want to be in the car, with yuki.
Both parties are my besties.
I really dunno what to do.
I am afraid that the history will replay & I will be the one suffering.
I know that it will be selfish of me to say this.
But, I dun wan myself to hurt neither of the parties.
Both of them accompany me through the dark,
they helped me to find the way out,
I really regretted it alot.
I know that it is too late.
But, for her sake, I must really work hard to compensate her the days when I first know her.
I swear, I will not ever ever lose her anymore.
I am willing to endure with the present & future.
I promise.
I will not let the person around me go anymore.
I will not.


Later going to see him alrd.
I dunno why, there is neither excitement in my heart nor wanting to see him.
Before that, it was actually feeling exciting & wanted to meet him,
but now, no.
Maybe......................

Currently: yan hai gong lu de chu kou (:


Today, might be the last day I will be posting before PSLE.
Morning that time, dreamt about him.
Remember the time when he requested us to break.
I dunno why. I cried while i was still sleeping.
Abit eccentric though.
But, it's true.
When he ask if wanted to break, my heart sank.
He was the one who ask if wanna stead,
but now, he was the one who ask to break.
Maybe, I really do not understand what's in his mind.
He gave me a hope, &
he was the one who broke it.
The hope no longer exist anymore.
I not sure if I still like him.
His friends went to ask me this question.
" Jane Seow, do you still love him?"
Upon hearing this, I didnt want to reply him.
He ask so loud that the whole people looking at me sia.
I wanted to reply a "yes".
But, i didnt dare to do so.
In fact, I didnt want him to know that I am still in luv with him.
I am afraid that he will avoid me.
His friend & him were throwing the fun snap,
the thing that can burst within secs,
he throw at Cheryl & me.
I didnt know the reason

Currently listening to kucha. [:

The song damn nice de lorhs.
Crazy nowadays becuz of BBT.
& him as well larhs.
Onli can see him during tuition de time...
Sobs.
But better than not seeing each other.
Today, nehh go skool.
Cuz fever.
Somemore trigger.
Tomorrow also not going lerhs.
Onli going for listening comprehension on friday.
English Listening Comprehension - 14/20
Chinese Listening Comprehension- 13/15
Like not that good lerhs.
Missing my friends today,
wondering what they are doing now.
I sick still have to do homework.
Bad right?
Who call the PSLE so fast wanna reach alrd?
Bo bian.
Have to do lorhs.
To prevent nagging from parents,
thn later LC that time cannot listen carefully.
Like dun have responsibility.
Heheh.
Cuz like i dun really want to blame larhs,
just that a bit too tired.
thn gong gong lerhs.
Sry, end blogging lerhs.
Buhbyeee. Miss you. {:



PS. Needa do hw lerhs.

I apologise for not posting that much. I know that there'll be lots of spider... Haha. Have to tok about what happen alrd. (:

The days I've cried for you.
You simply ignored me.
Sometimes, I really hope that you can look at me. But is that possible?
Maybe I am selfish to say this.
But, isnt love to be selfish?
Maybe, I have no place in your heart.
But, I dun care.
I am about to give up.
Really. Believe it or not.
But, i know it is impossible.
You are the first person that makes me to fall for you.
Yet, now all the things change.
I cant believe that.
To speak the truth, I like u, more than I do.
Currently, cut my hair.
Thn a bit weird though.
However, at least there's a fringe.
Hear that yuki had her hair being cut as well.
She cut bangs.
Maybe, I also cuttin bangs.
But have to wait for next next de month.
Shld be quite weird de.
Hope tmr, nothing will happen cuz I am tired of being hurt,
used of being hurt.
I dun really wish to get hurt anymore.
Do you all believe that I once cried & didnt stop for 2 hrs plus?
I dun need your pity, just that,
i want you to know that your words has really hurt me.
I really dun wish to write this post. But i cannot bear anymore.
The expression of you, happy with your friends,
really make me feel regret for not cherishing you.
You apologise to me, but, i told u not to apologise cause
I dun want it to affect your results for prelim or PSLE.
How I wish that I can turn the clock to when we broke that time,
I will treasure you more than last time.
However, i really wants bygones be bygones. But, Sorry.
I cant do it.
I really cant.
I can think of the happy times that we were together.
But now, no. Cuz, i think i dun want to break u & ur friends.
Remember that, the whole world will be longing for ur smile...