heyy, sorry for not posting for a long time(:
kinda busy watching shows currently.

Now, my idol is AARON(:
He rawks(: he so shuai, cute, & i wish to meet him face to face with him:D
But, this will never come true.
After watching mysterious incredible terminator, I started to fell in love with him.
AARON FOREVER(:

Paiseh lurhs, kinda crazy with him.
But after watching mysterious incredible terminator,
nth to watch lurhs. Haiz... today is the last day of 2009.
Hello, 2010(: Goodbye 2009 D;

Although there are different lots of things in 2009,
but , i have learnt a lesson wif friendship.
Thanks 2009(:


Posted to greendale & in the same class with
jia xuan, yuki & kelvan.
All from 6E(:

Cant wait to go skool. cos too boring lerhs.
heehs. xD

Currently crazy in (Hai pai tian xin) = Hi My Sweetheart(:

The show damn nice siah.
The person who are acting are Rainie yang, Show Luo...
Now, till ep 5 niah, waiting for the ep 6 to arrive.
Idk what to do. We are drifting apart with each other.
I opened our conversation box, hoping that you will tok to me.
I was the one who took the initiative to tok to you.
But, you are always busy. Idk what to do.
It is like there's a wall between us, I dun know what you are thinking,
or what you are doing. Why? I shouldnt have tell anyone that I have
feelings for you. Then , we can play wif each other, without knowing anything.
Wouldnt that be great?
Does love really begins with a smile, grow with a kiss, and end in a teardrop?

Got back my results on 26 November
Kinda shocked. din expect myself to get 204.
I tot it will be like 188+?
In the end , 204.


English: B
Maths:C
Chinese:A
Science:B
Hmt: Passed-.-


My prelim was like 188.
I actually improved by 16 marks.
Shuang shuang, dun envy me.
You can also do well if you work hard.
Kayss?
Dun be sad , work even harder & harder.
Jump from Normal to Express, I will be waiting for the good news.
kays?
Rmb, er-jie will always be behind you.
Dun be afraid of challenges,
but, go nearer to it, make it as a challenge to you.(:


PS: He scored 218. Was happy for him.
but cant go the same skool as him. D;

Thanks Jina for helping me to change my blogskin(:
ily!(: ( as friends)
To all my friends, good luck for tmr!(:
next time thn i post, gtg. Bye!(:

Cant I have my own decisions?
Must I have to ask for your opinions before doing it?
Although I am your daughter, but that doesnt mean that you can do anything you want.
Do you know that's a word called respect.
& if you respect me, I'll respect you.
This is then called mutual respect.
But, in the first place, you were the one who did not respect me.
So, dun even wish for a fucking respect from me to you!
Fcker.

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100 times of i love you & i miss you.
Can this prove how much i love you?

Today, hong lao shi din come(:
Was told to write 2 profile books.
Was writing wif lynn(:
She's also writing profile book.
Thn go back class.
Din go down, stayed in class.
Played with handphones & spamming sms-es.
thn went down.
Prize -giving ceremony.
Thn go back class.
Mrs ng said lots of facebook thingy.
Played ' stress ' and arm wrestling with some boys & girls.
Time passes so fast that i din even notice it.
Thn followed carolyn to office to pay for the skool fees.
Thn saw christine, after that go find yiting.
Christine treated me to eat satay(:
thn i go home.






I dunno why, suddenly cant bear my friends & classmates.
Time passes throughout this 6 years in rvps.
I have my both happy & sad times there.
But, i learnt many many things over there.
Rvps, i wun forget u, the teachers, my friends.
I will return back when there is any occasions!(:
xD

Can you just stop it?
Why cant i go out?
Becos of ur fucking reasons?
Well, I DUN GIVE IT A DAMN.
Since you know that it is the last week,
cant i hang out with my friend?
Treasure the moments with them uhh?
You really too BITCH alrd.
Is not that I want to scold you.
But, you are GOING TOO FAR.
Did you spare a thought for me?
Did you?Well, it's so obvious.
It is : NO.
Hey, you think I very free arh?
Have the time to talk back.
Cos, is u dun respect me and force
me to be like that.
Dun think 1 handphone can make me yours.
Well, u wait long long.
Everything go complain to him,
u think he very free arhs?
He very busy de lorhs.
I know,
u not busy.
U very free.
Right?
Free until can check my SMS.
Can you give me some privacy?
I am not your whoever,
just only a so call ' daughter ' to you.
Not him.
He is the one whom I love.
Not you.
U are the one whom I hate.
This might be quite hurtful, but,
sorry, I have no choice.
You dun give me my freedom,
thn dun expect me to be like your dog,
do whatever u say.
And u know what?
I really really cannot take it anymore.
It is like u are poking a thousands of needles into my body.
It is aching now.
U know?
I bet u dunno.
U only care about him, right?
So, stop caring about me,
give my freedom back!
U this fucking idiot asshole.

Yesterday, when to nan chiau high school with Shuang-mei(:
The dance , orchestra, or rather, everything was so nice.
Started loving that school, but of course not more than him.
But, idk if i have the ability to go to the school.
Haiz... If miracles can happen, wouldnt it be great?
Lol.
Leave Nan chiau at 11.
Thn when to cp till 12.
Started feeling hungry, when 7-11 to buy smt to eat.
Bought one small size of pizza , which cost $2.50
Kinda expensive, cos, only so small size derhs.
Lucky, shuang-mei know how to use the oven,
if not, i nth to eat & pay for nth.
Thanks , mei! (:
Thn when to Shuang-mei house, change pants.
after that, come to my house.
Ask if diana wanna come,
thn diana say can.
But until 3+ , she went home.
Thn me & shuang watch hot shot.
At 4.30, watched television.
As shuang was too tired, she slept on my sofa.
Cant bear to wake her up, so 6.15 thn call her up.
Shuang went home @ 6.30.
Later, going to erika's grad party.
So happy :D
Meeting mei later @ long john silver! (:


ily very much, but do u know?

I dun wanna go to evan's party.
I am afraid that they will call me bunny,
hence, i rejected the invitation.
I am not sure why I am doing this.
But, one thing that I can confirm is that,
I dun want to be hurt anymore.
The strong wind is blowing too hard,
in the time, I grew much more stronger,
I will be facing difficulties,
which makes me feeling to give up.
But, I will not give up easily.
I will be determined to my stand.
I will be much more stronger than ever.
I dun want to be hurt anymore.
Really.
I really dun wanna.
But, since I let her go lerhs,
so, I must trust her.
Instead of suspecting her.
If she really cannot endure it,
thn I will be sad,
cos, the person whom I trusted the most,
lie to me.
But, I wun have that kind of thinking.
I am sure that she wun let me down.
Right?
I hope so.
Maybe, I should open my heart even wider,
not thinking about anything.
Just treasuring the things around me.
Instead of blaming the heaven that I dun have the things which my friends have.
Yes.
I should have this kind of thinking.
I will change my attitude & mindset.
I believe I will success!
Believe me.
Alright?

Cant the adults just fulfil their promises made?
Everytime also like dun go along with their promise.
They think they what arh,
allow thn go, dun allow thn dun go, think must see their mood.
Please larhs, if see their mood, thn i forever no need go out lerhs.
Thn like destroy my feelings u know,
all plans are made alrd.
thn now, have to say buhbye to it.



really dunno what they thinking

Yesterday, dunno like what happen.
Yuki want her dad to fetch me to kelvan house to give him the homework.
But for dunno what reason, after her father drove away, I felt like turning back.
I want to walk with yiting they all & i also want to be in the car, with yuki.
Both parties are my besties.
I really dunno what to do.
I am afraid that the history will replay & I will be the one suffering.
I know that it will be selfish of me to say this.
But, I dun wan myself to hurt neither of the parties.
Both of them accompany me through the dark,
they helped me to find the way out,
I really regretted it alot.
I know that it is too late.
But, for her sake, I must really work hard to compensate her the days when I first know her.
I swear, I will not ever ever lose her anymore.
I am willing to endure with the present & future.
I promise.
I will not let the person around me go anymore.
I will not.


Later going to see him alrd.
I dunno why, there is neither excitement in my heart nor wanting to see him.
Before that, it was actually feeling exciting & wanted to meet him,
but now, no.
Maybe......................

Currently: yan hai gong lu de chu kou (:


Today, might be the last day I will be posting before PSLE.
Morning that time, dreamt about him.
Remember the time when he requested us to break.
I dunno why. I cried while i was still sleeping.
Abit eccentric though.
But, it's true.
When he ask if wanted to break, my heart sank.
He was the one who ask if wanna stead,
but now, he was the one who ask to break.
Maybe, I really do not understand what's in his mind.
He gave me a hope, &
he was the one who broke it.
The hope no longer exist anymore.
I not sure if I still like him.
His friends went to ask me this question.
" Jane Seow, do you still love him?"
Upon hearing this, I didnt want to reply him.
He ask so loud that the whole people looking at me sia.
I wanted to reply a "yes".
But, i didnt dare to do so.
In fact, I didnt want him to know that I am still in luv with him.
I am afraid that he will avoid me.
His friend & him were throwing the fun snap,
the thing that can burst within secs,
he throw at Cheryl & me.
I didnt know the reason

Currently listening to kucha. [:

The song damn nice de lorhs.
Crazy nowadays becuz of BBT.
& him as well larhs.
Onli can see him during tuition de time...
Sobs.
But better than not seeing each other.
Today, nehh go skool.
Cuz fever.
Somemore trigger.
Tomorrow also not going lerhs.
Onli going for listening comprehension on friday.
English Listening Comprehension - 14/20
Chinese Listening Comprehension- 13/15
Like not that good lerhs.
Missing my friends today,
wondering what they are doing now.
I sick still have to do homework.
Bad right?
Who call the PSLE so fast wanna reach alrd?
Bo bian.
Have to do lorhs.
To prevent nagging from parents,
thn later LC that time cannot listen carefully.
Like dun have responsibility.
Heheh.
Cuz like i dun really want to blame larhs,
just that a bit too tired.
thn gong gong lerhs.
Sry, end blogging lerhs.
Buhbyeee. Miss you. {:



PS. Needa do hw lerhs.

I apologise for not posting that much. I know that there'll be lots of spider... Haha. Have to tok about what happen alrd. (:

The days I've cried for you.
You simply ignored me.
Sometimes, I really hope that you can look at me. But is that possible?
Maybe I am selfish to say this.
But, isnt love to be selfish?
Maybe, I have no place in your heart.
But, I dun care.
I am about to give up.
Really. Believe it or not.
But, i know it is impossible.
You are the first person that makes me to fall for you.
Yet, now all the things change.
I cant believe that.
To speak the truth, I like u, more than I do.
Currently, cut my hair.
Thn a bit weird though.
However, at least there's a fringe.
Hear that yuki had her hair being cut as well.
She cut bangs.
Maybe, I also cuttin bangs.
But have to wait for next next de month.
Shld be quite weird de.
Hope tmr, nothing will happen cuz I am tired of being hurt,
used of being hurt.
I dun really wish to get hurt anymore.
Do you all believe that I once cried & didnt stop for 2 hrs plus?
I dun need your pity, just that,
i want you to know that your words has really hurt me.
I really dun wish to write this post. But i cannot bear anymore.
The expression of you, happy with your friends,
really make me feel regret for not cherishing you.
You apologise to me, but, i told u not to apologise cause
I dun want it to affect your results for prelim or PSLE.
How I wish that I can turn the clock to when we broke that time,
I will treasure you more than last time.
However, i really wants bygones be bygones. But, Sorry.
I cant do it.
I really cant.
I can think of the happy times that we were together.
But now, no. Cuz, i think i dun want to break u & ur friends.
Remember that, the whole world will be longing for ur smile...

With the fact that he is gonna stead with the gal,
there's a gal, going crazy over him,
heart crushes into pieces.
But there's nothing that she could do...
It seems to be complicated.
But, to him, it doesnt seems so.
He is happy with the gal.
But not the other gal.
She feel like confessing.
But afraid of being rejected.
Will there be miracle living?

Recently, love is complicated.
Which I really think so.
Should love be accepted or rejected?
Or taken for granted?
Of course not for granted.
But I dunno whether to confess to him that
I have feelings for him
But, I am afraid of being rejected,
crying for him, crying for her.
It is like 2 person whom like each other
& there is another one who fall for the guy.
The guy luvs the another gal vehh much.
But the another gal who likes him,
cant bear to hurt both of them.
Maybe she should give up.
But luv cant be explained.
Really, to speak the truth.
It cant be explain.
Perhaps, everything can stop at the same time.
But i really dun know what to do.